I planned to be Tigger for Halloween. I wanted to be him since last year, when my girl RiRi wore that costume.
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Exactly one week later--
Shows you how much time I have to write my blog. Basically I got super busy this week again and now I am finally \ motivated to write this thing. So what was I saying? Tigger. I was Tigger for Halloween and I went to a tailor and showed pictures of what I wanted the costume to look like. I drew it out exactly and it turned out ok. I wouldn't say it was amazing, but it fit and it worked for Halloween (it took the tailor about a week to make)! I also bought black gloves for the costume and fishnet tights, and HIGH HIGH HIGH Steve Madden heels... and ta da: Sexy Tigger. I felt like Lady Gaga when we went out that night. The outfit was like a one piece bathing suit... more or less! But super awesome! Originally it was supposed to show some skin on the side (where the material was cut out), but I thought that was too much, so instead I covered the open area with fishnets and I personally thought it looked better. Monika was supposed to be Morticia Addams, but she changed her costume to the girl from The Ring. Lily was a bunny with a costume she rented from a tailor. Audre was Cleopatra and she ordered her costume on the infamous Chinese shopping site: TaoBao. Serena was a flame and being the artist that she is... she painted a cool looking design on her face with body paint and glitter! AWESOME. Oh yea, I also drew cat eyes for myself with eyeliner so that was a first. Maybe I will do that again when I go out next time... it's so funky!
In China I like to experiment more with my makeup because I have more choices and well, it's China... I allow everything for myself here and I'm not embarrassed to push the envelope like I would be in the US (for example I bought a pink bob wig and I am planning on wearing it very soon). After drinking and getting ready in the hotel, and eating cake of course, we went out to Babyface... we got a table and danced and drank whiskey and life was goooood! Too many people kept grabbing my tail though, but I just thought it was funny. Audre grabbed me at one point and introduced me to some Americans who turned out to be from right by where I live!!! It was soooooo weird to meet people from the Chicago suburbs. Unfortunately for them, I don't like to really talk for too long with American guys abroad because they think they're the shit and probably get too much attention from girls, so I tend to shy away from them. No thank you... I meet enough Americans in the US.
Lately, we've been going out with British people and a few Americans in GZ. I just met them three weeks ago but to be honest, don't remember all of them since I wasn't too interested in talking... just dancing! So we've all been going dancing and bar hopping, pretty fun. Last week we went to our new friend Neil's place and he's a DJ so I made him download Rihanna's "What's My Name" and I was dancing to it... by myself of course... then I got tired and fell asleep while everyone else partied till dawn. hehehe. As for this weekend, we're going to an opening of a new bar in Guangzhou and it's going to be super fun, I can feel it!!! Can't wait. And for once, I'm going out on a Friday because I need it, believe me.
Why do I need it? I've been homesick lately. Randomly I get bouts of homesickness for one reason or another and this bout is for a very important and special reason, but it's not like I can pick up and leave China or turn back time... so I just have to deal with the way things are. I guess I just really miss certain people and certain things... It's not as if I hate China. Today I had a talk with Wifey on Skype and she totally gassed me up because sometimes I forget exactly what I'm doing and how important it is to my development as a person, professionally and personally. I have changed a lot and developed myself in China. I've learned so much about Chinese culture and myself most of all. I am comfortable with new environments and feel like now I can go anywhere. I have expanded my comfort zone an unbelievable amount (in the words of Wifey) and now is the time for me to be selfish. Yes, I did sacrifice a lot for coming to China, but instead of dwelling on the past and on the negative burdens in life, it's more important to be proud of where I am right now and exactly how much I've accomplished. It's easy to say I should have, could have, done this and that, but it's more important to look at the present and the future and keep moving. Easier said and done but that is def something I have come to realize. So thank you Wifey for reaffirming me about myself and reminding me that I cannot belittle this huge experience I have gone through and continue to go through. I forget sometimes, after EIGHT months in China, that I am in another world here... I am used to not speaking Chinese, not being able to easily get around, to the staring and the "Hallooooooooooos". I am used to being so completely out of my comfort zone that it has actually BECOME my comfort zone. Wow. Some of my friends say that I am taking this experience the best out of all of us but I wouldn't say that is true. I would say that right now I am just lucky. I'm lucky because most Chinese people act like they like me (even if they don't), I like my job, I am not stressed out, everything has seemed to fall into place (well with work at least)... and that was not the case for all my friends here. Maybe I am just less picky and take things as they come no matter what they are... once again, when it comes to China yes, but not always.
I have had to deal with a lot here but I TRY not to dwell on that, but it's important to remind myself that I have gone through some crazy things in China and I am still going strong. Go Me!!! (Believe me, yesterday I was not feeling this gassed, but today I am feeling much better and much more secure and goal oriented... it helps that I'm going to Hong Kong in 2 weeks and then again in a month and that I am having dinner with some of my favorite people in China tonight). Also Serena mentored me last night after a mini-breakdown (heheheh it happens, I'm in China people! And this is only like the 3rd time in eight months more or less). There is one thing I really wish I had in my life right now and everything would be perfect... but I'll settle for the other good things :) In China I tend to focus more on the positives and not even THINK about the negatives and take everything with a grain of salt. We all explain to each other "It's China" every time something goes wrong... and just laugh. I know I'll miss it here when I go back to the US, but speaking of that... I'm not sure WHEN I'll go back to the US yet. My division is giving me signs that they want me to stay for another year and move to the marketing department, but I'm not sure if that's what I want yet... There are many future decisions I have to make in the next few months and it's so difficult... while I think about many factors, Wifey told me that this is the only time in my life I can be selfish, for one reason or another, so I just need to be selfish right now and make my decisions based solely on me. But I can't :( Well maybe I can, I'm just not sure if I want to. Decisions decisions.
Lily is also leaving Beijiao and moving to Yunnan. Her boyfriend lives there and she made a rash abrupt decision to also move there and quit her job... I won't get into it in this blog post but China has a VERY FUNNY way with jobs and Chinese workers... I will discuss this in my next post. I'd also like to mention that now at 3 30pm we all do some group stretching at work and occasionally we eat fungus soup that a lady called Mei Jie makes. It's sweet and very good for woman's bodies. It is supposed to flush out toxins in your system. That would help considering a few weeks ago I had to go to the hospital for unbearable stomach pain... and while I thought it was one thing, and then an inflamed gallbladder, and it turned out to be something with the intestines being infected. I got some medicine and am goooooood. I have been more careful about what and when I eat though since then. On another completely different topic, I bought four pairs of new glasses with Serena and she helped me pick them out and I love them! I got an amazing purple pair and a blue paid that totally makes me look like a teacher... I'm wearing them today and they are so Hong Kong/sexy teacher/fashionista... Fierce.
Time to go! Keep reading!!!
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